I lie on my bed and stare up at the ceiling. I find words..words to write..but I can't manage to explain what's in my heart. I think about my life..my past..my present..my future. What am I going to do? What DO I want to do? The answer to the second question is simple. I want to do a lot of things..fulfill a lot of dreams..but how can I if I don't make a new start? If I don't make a new chapter in my life? If I don't bring a new Rukhsar into existence? I must create a new start, create a new me. And that is exactly what I will do now. I just feel like I've wasted my life. I've just been over thinking, being my own worst critic, crying over little things, worrying and stressing over nothing, killing myself. Killing myself with these useless little problems that I made into mountains and let them overtake me. If I want to fulfill my dreams, I know I have to forget the old me and start a new me.
The new me who has just got married and has a loving and wonderful husband (Zain). The new me who must forget her past and just think about her future with her husband. The new me who must plan her life and fulfill her dreams. Visit New York, go to Pilgrimage, have a family, and so on. Only the new me can fulfill these dreams. The new me who must just take her problems as God's tests and not complain, instead be grateful that it's not worse. The new me who must have a big heart, and start to be less sensitive, not letting others affect her. She must build confidence and self esteem within her. She must start taking care of herself and looking after her health, being week won't get her anywhere. She must stop thinking too much and instead should be less tensed and just think positively. She must be brave and not let little things make her cry, she should just laugh and shake it off..rather than start crying. She must sort her life out, otherwise there's no hope in her recovery. Her first and main goal should be: stay happy and make the most out of life.
Dear world, a new Rukhsar is born..a new chapter in Rukhsar Ali Din's story has been created. A chapter that starts with Zain and will end with Zain. A chapter that begins with happiness and will end with happiness. A chapter that will..be the best.
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Dear world, a new Rukhsar is born..a new chapter in Rukhsar Ali Din's story has been created. A chapter that starts with Zain and will end with Zain. A chapter that begins with happiness and will end with happiness. A chapter that will..be the best.
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